Birthday Dinner

Dawn, Justin and mommy ( unfortunatly don't have Pei Shins picture)

Ronald and future mommy

Robyn and mommy (check out the wrinkly arms)

Pretty sure I'm looped

Look at the flames on that cake!

Me and my chicks ( only one missing)

Dawn and mommy ( half looped by now)

Birthday Girl ( check out the eyebags)

Dawn and mommy

So sunday evening we went out for dinner and all had a good time. Only thing missing was Jade, because she's saving the rest of her leave to come home for christmas. All my working children gave me money and told me I have to blow it all on myself. Trouble is I'm not used to blowing that much money on myself. They gave me some idea's such go to a spa, buy designer sun glasses, I actually need to test my eyes again so maybe I'll get some new eye glasses. I could buy a hand bag or maybe I could get teeth. Mine are sadly lacking at the back of my mouth, on second thought maybe not enough money to get teeth I need so many, Hahaha. Pei Shin gave me a novel, Dean Koontz, my next favorite author after Stephen King. We had a nice dinner and Dawn and Alex brought a nice bottle of vodka. Justin bought the cake. I always tell them no need to buy a cake, they always sing Happy Birthday at the resturant. Nothing like telling everyone your turning 50.

I said in my previous blog that I am not sucessful but when I look at my children I think I'm pretty damn sucessful. I have raised responsible sucessful children.

Only blight of the evening is Justin and I had a disagreement about me having a cigarette. I know, I'm quitting but at the resturant I saw this lady out side smoking and it was driving me nuts, I don't know why and I just had to have one. Of course Justin gave in. Momma's boy LOL.

Happy 50th

Well today is the long dreaded day. The day I was born, 50 years ago. I have been feeling depressed at the thought of turning 5o and so when I woke up this morning it was just another day and nothing has changed. I feel the same and look the same.

Your 50th birthday should be a time of reflection and as I reflected about my life, while hanging the clothes, I have not achieved much in this life. Twenty years down the road I'll still be hanging clothes on the line, I still won't be successful at anything.

The question is do we have to be a great success to give our lives more value, more meaning. No. As long as you go through life and can say you did your best, you are a decent human being, do not intentionally harm others, this does not make your life any less meaningful. You do not have to care what other people think of you, as long as your children think much of you, is enough.

So on this day Robyn and Jordan inform me they didn't buy me a present. I'm not surprised, so I tell them they can cook me breakfast. Robyn tells me she will bring in the clothes and fold them and Jordan can cook me breakfast. So I sit for over an hour waiting for my food, both are watching TV. When I can no longer take the hunger pains I ask where is my breakfast. Robyn tells Jordan to cook my breakfast and he starts arguing with her about who is supposed to cook my breakfast. Typical, so much for Birthday surprises. I mean there's no surprise there, the two of them fighting over what should have been done with love. Robyn finally tells her brother that she is bringing in the clothes and folding them and that is why he is to cook breakfast. I finally got my breakfast cooked by Jordan he even washed the dishes up. At least he didn't leave them for me to wash.

To night the older kids are taking me out for dinner. A nice restaurant in PJ called The Carnival. It is a buffet style dinner and the waiters go around to your table and slice off slabs of meat onto your plate. Side dishes are at the food bar. We went there once before and the food was great and very filling. All you can eat. I'm looking forward to going again.